an immersive inner metamorphosis


Complete with: 

  • Video and audio content woven throughout the course
  • Journaling activities, affirmation lists, and resource guides
  • Rachel’s step-by-step guide to safe, mindful pain play, with 20+ ideas
  • 4 in-depth modules to heal your relationship with your inner masochist, uncover the shape of your unique masochistic nature & confront the parts of yourself holding you back from releasing any self-sabotage
  • Bonuses included: The Thundering Tomb of a Masochist playlist, curated guided meditations from mindfulness experts/teachers, 15% off store items, and bonus module - A New Perspective on Angels and Demons

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About Your Teacher


Rachel Leedom is a sadomasochism integration mentor and founder of The Conscious Masochist, an online community for lovers of pain who desire to live in greater harmony with their dark side, and become more mindful of the ways they unconsciously choose pain over pleasure.


Rachel encourages people to embrace the entirety of the human experience, reminding them that while pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. She approaches sadomasochism from a philosophical & spiritual perspective, weaving timeless wisdom into S&M. 


Rachel is the author of the eBook, Conscious Masochism: Releasing our Addiction to Suffering and Embracing Our Darkness for Healing, and offers astrological birth chart readings to interpreting your sadomasochistic blueprint through the clues within your chart.


You can join the community on Instagram @TheConsciousMasochist